Its the begining of spring. I look out my window and see purple scattered throughout the field before me. There are birds flying through the sky, although it is still bloody cold outside. I am listening to the Memoires of a Geshia. So far its good. So far....a bit long. I have to run to wally world I need some stuff. My beautiful little Pushka. She is such a little spooty head. Ok got to go.
Me.

>Sigh<
I am tired. I finished the front today, its done, well at least my half of the yard is. I had a very productful weekend, even though I did no work work. I did only house stuff, nothing that was assosiated with work. I'm glad I'm leaving here soon, this veiw of a vacant field will be lost in a few months. They are building so quick around here its silly....everyone wants to live outside the city, in suburbia hell. I think I'm going to have to soak in salt, my body aches like no ones buisness. I wiss my hon were here so I could get a massage. Stupid back. I guess I'll not rant or rave any more and just go back to cleaning and doing things related to work like things.... such is my life.....

" If we could see tomorrow what of your plans, no one can live in sorrow ask all your friends...I was the one who was washing the blood off your hands..." ~~~~ GnR

I'm soooooo hungry!!!! I walked 3 miles this morning, yes damnit I am proud of that. I think that it was a very productive and healthy walk...Team Fluffy Monkey's GO! The heart walk of all things, now I'm waiting to go get some extreemly unhealthy Mexican Food. Mmmmmmm foooood. So I can finally talk to my husband on the phone on a normal basis now. I hope everything is alright with him. It seemed like he was very distraught and it caused me grief. I miss him. So mucho. I should be cleaning but I'm not hahahahaha.....such is life right...Puda Vida... g2g.

So I broke down and got a myspace account....I know...so lame... but thats ok, alot of my friends have one and its alot easier i guess. I miss them sometimes, and then sometimes I'm glad that there is only one or two people who know me who might still read this thing. Its cool.....I like it that way. The other people who read this are random and few and far beteen I think. Who would do a search for the two things I am listed for? I think no one......

I keep thinking about what next....I keep looking towards what the next step would be.... and I don't know. I think Russ and I will have to have a long talk when he comes back because I have no bloody clue what I want to do with my life anymore. I don't know and the not knowing drives me nuts. Perhaps I'm just in a funk....maybe. Who knows.

Peace.