One of the greater things in life isn't free, since everything comes with a price, although it may not be monetary, it still exists as a price. It has been so long since I last blogged, not because of lack of want, but because of lack of time or resources. There are some places that I travel that I cannot access blog.....such is life, such is my life that is.
Since it has been so long, I have some to say, some that won't make sense to anyone but me, and some that will make sense to the world, if only they could understand and grasp it....but alas most cannot.
I'm at a cross roads in my life where these decisions that are being made (or waiting to be made) should be made by both of us. Alas they cannot be, I am told either "do what ever you want" or "whatever dear"...drives me nuts, indecision that is.

I wish sometimes that there was more to me than there is, but I am who I am and the only way to change that is to work on it, I can change no one else but myself, and I can only change my perception. Someone told me that I was a real optimist, which is odd considering the life I have lead, the stuff I've been through, the things I have seen... there is an end to the tunnel, if it be a train or the other side, its still an end of one thing and the beginning of another. Endings should never be sad, they are only beginnings in disguise.

My music an my reading collection are much like the rest of my life, random and eclectic.

I only thought of that because it was Finer 11, then Toby Keith, then Mozart, then Tori Amos playing on my MP3 player..........funny....not quite funny haha...

" I can hear your footsteps in the hallway ...why oh why did you leave me, I can't keep the tears from my eyes, ... why oh why did you deceive me love with your silver tongue and gold plated lies..."