God must be very angry, or sad. There isn't much to day today other than the weather has been very bad. It was great earlier, but then it turned for the worse really quick. Thunder, lightning and a downpour of rain plauge the cities of SC tonight. There is nothing more frightening on the road than wondering if yuo can make it home safe. There is nothing out there to fear, but Gods wrath . . .
Perhaps because its Sunday I feel the inclination to say what I say, perhaps because I wish to curl into a ball with my love, since the dreams I have been having prevent me from doing so. Where are you when I need you Charles, your advice on dreams, I kinda need that now.
I wish my love were here with me, but for now I must go, I fear the lightning to be too close for comfort, and for me to be on the computer.

nite all

Life is a funny thing isn't it?
Not funny ha ha like a comedy show...
but funny.
Funny like how you feel when your toes curl up and go numb,
funny like how you feel when you know that someone somewhere
is thinking of you.
Funny like when the hairs on the back of your neck stand on
end, or when you know deep down inside that something is
wrong.

Funny like that.

But also funny like a shy glance on glance at someone across the
room.
Funny like a sweetheart crush.
Funny like your first sunset, the first one you take awe at.

Funny like that.

Perhaps its too funny when we get older. How do we deal when the people wee thought were invincible or on a pedestal fall? How do we deal when our Superman meets his kryptonite, right in front of our eyes? How do we deal when our faith is tested and our lives strained? How? Is it faith? Is it friendship? How?

Perhaps this is the answer, funny, humor.

"If we couldn't laugh at the things we didn't understand we profile couldn't react to a lot of life._ ~ Hobbes

"Where is the love?" ~ Blue

I used to think love was so easy to define. That when you found it, it would be like the movies. There aren't many people who have that movie love, not these days, not any more. I am grateful for the love I have for he has shown me so much. But I ask myself what if I had not met him....What then? Is there that someone for everyone? Because if there is could someone tell my roommate, she doesn't believe me.

"Wear sunscreen . . . The advice I give is from my own meandering experience....I will dispense this advice now...." ~Baz Luhrman

Perhaps the song is right, perhaps there will always be a delusion in the peoples mind that when they were young, prices were lower, politicians were noble, and children always respected their elders.
Will I be that way in ten years? Will I be there one day? Will I be somewhere that I don't recognize. Will I wake up one morning and not realize where the hell I am or how I got there? Hopefully not. I try to stop and smell the roses but sometimes I think I'm too afraid of getting stung in the nose by a bee.

A few simple lyrics can make or break a day for me sometimes. I find it sad and redeeming at the same time. There are those songs that make you so happy just because they take you back to a time where you remember something a little more than happy. Some take you to a time that makes you remember something a little more than sad, those can make me cry at times. Sometimes, and sometimes they just make me reflect.
Its all good though, other than the heavy pasta I had for dinner, I had a pretty good and healthy day. Productive and otherwise.

I miss my babe, and i love him for loving me, even with my life as it is. Hes a good man, and he will make a great father one day if we ever decide to unleash hell on this world by having children of our own.
I'm going to go do homework now ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~```

"God forbid you ever have to walk a mile in her shoes, cause then you really might know what its like to have to chose." ~~Everlast