"I fear the worst in you....Don't say that you don't , ... and if you could see me now..."

So here I am, alone till tomorrow, till tomorrow they say. Somewhat sureal being here alone. I should be doing as much homework or cleanining as I can possibly do, but instead I slept and watched TV for most of the day. I did clean though, and I did read some of my homework, I figure I am not going to sleep but stay awake, get an hour or so of sleep on the way up there and on the way back, perhaps sleep all day if Russell is going to. =)

I miss my husband, Its 1705 in the world I come from, yet here it is 2305 sucha time difference, sucha whacked out sched.

To my work I go,

"I tear my self open, I sew myself shut, but my weakness is that I care too much, and the scars remind me that the past is real, I tear my heart open just to feel, "

Sometimes there is no where else to go but down, and no where or one to be there with you when you are there. Why is over 50 percent of the world so self destructive? Why is it that they consistantly maintain this two steps forward twelve steps back motto?


I've tried helping but its really hard when they don't want the help... so be it, I do what I can and then I move on, its all I can do for them, and all I can to stay sane...


"...and my weakness is that I care too much..."