Perhaps there is something to this whole thing I'm just not grasping. Perhaps there is something that I can't understand only because I have never known things of such nature. Then again, here I am at the ripe old age that I am at, and I wonder, I wonder if I went the wrong way somewhere. It was once said it is not the big choices you make in your life that really effect you, like which college, or what career, but the little ones. Like if your going to stop today at the stop an' go for coffee, or where your going to eat dinner tonight,
Perhaps I've just fubared the small choices, and made the right big ones. Perhaps that is whats wrong.

Hello world, how goes all? I am doing fine here in the land of no~where. These old movies, I love them, there is something about older movies that I just cant find in the new Hollywood. There is something about them, somethign that isn't in movies anymore. It was a very different tiem back then. Sometimes I wonder if there is such a thing as reincarnation. I've been told many times that I have an old soul.
Penny Serenade is what I am watching now. Its got Cary Grant and Irene Dunne. Its funny they adopt a baby girl, and have no clue how to take care of the child. Its cute though. Cute as a button.
"But all the Kings horses and all the Kings men couldn't put Humpty together again"

....Spoiling oneself to a day of treats is one of the most enjoyable things in the world, ...pity I haven't had the time to do something like that in a long time. Right now I am relaxing...if there were such a thing in this place.
So my boyfriend is coming to visit me, either here or at home, it looks like it will be here though. Its a good thing. I miss him dearly. . . very dearly.
I should clean my room and iron and stuff before work tomorrow, since I'm not sleepy yet...I really should, but I am not sure I'll do more than clean a little. SPootyness...~~~~~~~~~~`

"Father Lucifer you never looked so sane, you always did perfer the drizzle to the rain tell me are you still in love with that milk maid?"~~Tori Amos

For some reason, today wasn't my day. Not that anything BAD really happened, I think I just had several epiphany that I didn't enjoy to much. Ones about MSP, and my life. I had some of the best sleep that I had ever had last night, but it took me forever to fall asleep. Sometimes I wonder why my occasional insomnia returns and fades only to return again. I would say oh woe is my life, however, I am grateful for every single day I am allowed to breath air (regardless of how smelly it is), and see sunshine. Basically to live another day. A friend of mine sometimes tells me things I don't want to hear, ... or reads my mind...this is how most of these epiphanys occur.
"I don't like this cat...He reads minds....."

I went out tonight, first time in a long time that I went out to "party", which of course, was not my intention this time. I went to a Hail and Farewell, then got "dragged"along for Kerouac. It was fun, after all that we went out to the clubs till curfew. I have a headache now, got knocked down by some guys who were fighting and hit my head. It hurt. Anyhow, while downtown I saw a friend of mine who had left the country, now she's back, but only for a week, I think she missed us., which is good, because I know I missed her. I killed my no drinking thing today. I had a shot of Soju, the devils brew. Only a shot.......So does it really count? Am I now Off the wagon? Or is it on the wagon. I don't know. I guess it is time for me to slowly steep back into my drinking status .. . .. Just not like I was before, no more like that. I found out some bad news recently, my bunnie can't come to the states withme, I have to leave him here, in Korea. I don't want to leave him here.....he the cutest thing in the world, what am I gonna do without him....hes like a dog.....poor Soju. He'll never know democracy.
"You fall, and dust yourself off, no matter how many times you fall, always...always get up, and dust yourself off..."

Please forgive me for complaining, however, its been one of those years. I'm here in my room watching one of those old movies, a black and white Humphrey Bogart movie. The harder they fall. I think I might like this movie. I don't know why, but I always like old movies.
~"Money's money no matter where you get it..."~ HB